I can't do this right now

Now I'm coming down
thinking about everything again
feeling like this is the end.
Then I hear you say 'it's OK, my friend'

I hardly believe you and I'm tired of thinking
so I get to thinking
":Maybe one more hit won't kill me"

I can't do this anymore
I'm trying not to need you
I do, though, and it kills me.
I'm freaking out and ducking down;
trying to stay focused and not lose myself again.
I've been so loose, though;
all you do is help me make my noose.

I'm tired but I don't want to sleep.
I'm full now and all I do is eat.
My body isn't working how I want it to
and my mind is making me it's slave again.

I think I love you
Oh, my God, I love you.
Not again, not like this, not right now.

I'm so bored, just looking for entertainment,
and I've found nothing.

It's too late to be jammin'
and too dark to go swimming
I'd like to see you tonight but the boss is home and I can't leave.
I haven't felt like this in a real long time
I hadn't had a dream like that in just as long.
To dream of disaster, like a spineless monster, I'm off my rocker.
I'm out to play
I'm broken beyond repair,
So no I can't help you repair yours.

Leave me alone and do it yourself.
I'm over you.

I just can't do this right now
I can't be alone and I can't remember my painful past
for it still hurts; time has not healed me of this.

I am almost sad
I am nearly mad
I am encroaching upon desperation.
I am just so alone and lost.

Feeling to much
Feeling too little
I will never be able to find a balance
This is my flaw.