Beautiful Smile. Laughing Nourishment.

     Don't stop, Don't you dare. How selfish it would be of you to ever let your muscles relax. The world needs your smile. The radiation is a necessity of worldly proportions and I need it. I need your smile and I need your laughter. More than I need food. Without them, your smile and laughter, I am weak and any food that I ingest does me no good.

     I feel as if it's easy to lose sight of what's a real necessity and what isn't. I say this however, with much thought. Your smile and happiness brighten my life. When I am not bright, when I am dark and suffering from my own mind, I am useless. Even more useless to myself than I am to others and if I can't help myself, what good am I? No, no, you must understand now. I should not have to keep repeating myself, but I have to and I know it. I know that you have a hard time really knowing that I mean what I say when I say such things. I don't say it lightly, I don't. I've thought and pondered and even before I was free my hand grasped yours in a desperate attempt to break free. I never told you though and you never felt it. I was there, though, and my hand sent messages to my brain through my nerves that I can't imagine ever reproducing. To feel you close to me is now the most exciting feeling I know.

     Don't look down!! look up at the world around you, for it is astounded by your beauty. It clings to your every word and takes it's time understanding you. For as long as we can hear or see you, we will be content. I can't breathe without you here and I know you don't want me to die. Or do you? I've been wrong before and lately you've just held so much hate towards me, I'm not sure if you even care if I live or die. I don't really care if I live or die, so why should you?

     If I died today, where would you be? If I died tomorrow, would that have been enough time for you to get over me just enough to not want to kill yourself?

     I have completely ruined the joy of this post.

You're welcome.